Prompt #8:

There will be an agreement in whatever variety of actions, so they be each honest and natural in their hour. – Ralph Waldo Emerson

What would you say to the person you were five years ago? What will you say to the person you’ll be in five years?

(Prompt Author: Corbett Barr)

 

My Response:

To give this context, five years ago…

…I was just 26…

…I had been married for just a little over a week…

…Uncle Eric Yoder, Grandpa Don Matics, and Grandpa Ervin Yoder were still alive…

…There were several people in my life who were much more of a daily or almost-daily presence than they are now (some of whom I miss dearly)…

…I was teaching English 9 and AP English 11…

…I was still driving my college car, connected to a different era symbolically…

…I had not yet had my children…

…I lived in our first house in Winchester, CA…

I could go on with the details, but I hope just these few facts give enough of a reference point with respect to how much my life has changed in five years.

So what would I say to myself if I went back in time? I think I wouldn’t say much at all. I love the mystery of my life. Part of the fun is being open to how it evolves and unfolds. There have been gorgeously resplendent moments in the past five years, as well as some truly extraordinarily low moments. Part of growing up and gaining maturity is learning how to feel and even intuit the balance of life’s events, to know that Time itself (or what we think of as “time”) is the Great Balancer. I wouldn’t want to give my 26-year-old self too much knowledge or deprive myself of that learning opportunity.

I think I might give Me-26 just a hug and a single quote:

“Barn’s burnt down—

now,

I can see the moon.”

(17th Century Japanese poet Mizuta Masahide)

 

And what would I say to the person I will be in five years?

I hope you still have a childlike spirit and have not let cynicism, impatience, or anger take over your heart for any reason. Remember to set your eyes for the moon, no matter what happens. One life: keep the passion.

 

 

 

 

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